ReINTRODUCTION

 

Please give me a moment as I reintroduce myself. It's been quite a while, as a matter of fact it has been almost a year and half since the last time I posted here. A lot of things in my life have changed. I am a different person than I was then. I have grown. I have continued to be shaped by God's grace. I have had the desire to want to start writing and posting again, unfortunately I have continued to postpone my posting. I have felt God began to stir my heart to writing again and that is what I shall do.

My name is Adam. I am 25 years young. Engaged to be married to the most amazing woman. I thank God every day of my life for my blessings, my trials, my joys, and my sufferings. I am a believer in Christ Jesus. I am no where near perfect. I have flaws. I have faults and shortcomings. Those things do not define me though. My Lord, defines me. He shapes me. He molds me. He uses me for His purpose. My life is surrendered to His mercy and grace. I have been forever changed by the cross. I invite you to read along as I attempt to share my heart through this blog. My prayer is through this blog, through my transparency, that God would use me to speak to you. I pray that my posting would draw you closer to something greater; to God.

Thank you for allowing me to reintroduce me; I look forward to sharing my heart with whomever may come across this blog.

God bless,

- Adam

Future.

Have you sat around wondering what's going on? Are you not sure what the future holds for you? Guess what, you're not alone in those feelings. I believe those are thoughts that plague most if not all of us. Don't worry I don't come to remind of the troubles but to remind of the encouragement. I look at my own life and I honestly am not sure where God will lead me, as most of you also probably do. This is what I have come to learn through prayer, reading, and advice from others. I have no need to worry and neither do you! I look at my life and I'm not exactly sure what my calling will be, I am not sure what direction God will take me, but I now know that is okay! Just like in all situations, God is sovereign and is, just as always, in control. Discussing this with a friend, I was made aware to stop and look. I might not exactly know where or what but right now God is at work. I look at different situations and see God shaping things in my life. I see as days go by and decisions are made that God's will is unfolding before me. That is my point of encouragement for all who are reading, take notice that God is working. You might not understand what or why but see that there are opportunities before you and those opportunities are presented by God. All you must do is see the opportunities before you, bring them before God in prayer and just trust the way He is guiding. God opens and closes doors, that is how you know where to go or what to do. You have no need to worry about what awaits but take hold of the moment, serve God, and watch Him take you. Our focus can't be on what awaits but rather on what we are doing now with the current opportunities; because those current opportunities are will guide us to what awaits. So I say if you're struggling, stay faithful to God, stay fervent in prayer, and just serve. Keep you're focus on God and what He is doing in you. Just allow God to work in you and before you know it, you'll watch Him work through you.

Take it all.

How can I be so reluctant to just let go? I lay here in bed so humbled, truly blessed beyond words by the Savior of my life. You see the last few months have been a crazy emotional ride for me; I have experienced both highs and lows and it has left me just drained. I decided a few months back to fly out, and come to see my best friend here in Kansas City. I was highly encouraged to take this as an opportunity to disconnect, an opportunity to get myself right and refreshed; sounds like a great plan no? Well it would be, I have been 3 days so far and though I have progressively been letting go and progressively "disconnecting", it has truly been to no success; that is until tonight.

God thank You for opening my eyes. Thank You Jesus for showing me, even you went away in quiet to disconnect from the trials of this world. I refuse to deceive myself anymore, sure I finally cried it out, sure I feel refreshed but mentally I knew where my mind was. Realizing that this just can't be anymore, that for my sanity I need to stop being stubborn. I came before God tonight, saying God take it all and just give me Jesus. I don't need to hold on to my problems or my pain anymore, it isn't my burden to carry! I am meant to come bring it before my Lord and find my rest in Him. That is exactly where I find myself tonight. After gathering my thoughts and through the help of my friend, I realized even Jesus disconnected to spend time with His Father. If Jesus had to disconnect, who the heck am I not to? I find myself humbled, newly strengthened knowing my God has me in His hands. What weighs me, has been removed. I stand realizing all chains have been broken through salvation in Christ. I know my problems aren't going to just go away, but I can rest assured that my resolution won't ever go anywhere. Sure what I bear might not be easy, it might be difficult at times but I will not carry it any further than from before me to before the cross any longer.

God I stand saying take it all, I have trust and I have faith in You. I see that though a storm is amidst me, I stand amidst the center of Your will. Lord, You are sovereign so I need not worry or be anxious. Thank You, I praise You!

I pray that maybe reading this, if there is something holding you down that you would find encouragement from this. Let go and let God. Disconnect from your situations, just give it to God. He wants you to come before Him with whatever you got but make sure to leave it there, before Him, before the cross.



Eph.4:23-24
Instead, let the Spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes.Put on your new nature, created to be like God—truly righteous and holy.

Thank you.

I've had quite a bit on my heart to share, this being one of them. 

I really am so blessed, honestly beyond comprehension. 

I can go on and on about what's going on in my life and where even amidst the storm I can see the beauty in it and what not, but I really just want to point out one of the biggest blessings I have received in my life. That blessing, being my mom. 

First and foremost, I want to start by saying she means the world to me and I thank God every day for choosing her to be my mother. I am so incredibly blessed to have been given what I have experienced to be the closest flesh representation of unconditional love through her. My mom is an incredible woman. Many times, I have described her as the definition of strength and sacrifice. I am sorry to say if you're reading this, my mom is clearly better than yours! Never have I met another mother that has been so selfless, so sacrificial, so loving, so caring, so concerned, so forgiving, so dedicated as my mom has been to her two kids. She has done nothing but what has been best for me and my brother, always placing us first behind God in her life. She has poured nothing but unconditional love on me. See I was never the model citizen child; I wasn't easy, I wasn't always a delight, flat out I made my mom's life a living nightmare at times yet not once did she ever stop loving for me. I stand here risen in Christ today and firmly believe in part it is due to the years of prayers and endless tears cried for me by my mother. God answered her prayers and I stand redeemed. As the same with God's love, I don't deserve an ounce of my mom's love yet she adores me. 

Aside from God obviously, she is responsible for me being the man I am today. She has been everything and more for me! I look at my mom and I pray to one day to marry a woman who loves her family as much as she has, who has love her husband as much as she has, who has cared and sacrificed for her kids as much as she has. I pray that I myself can be and do all those things just as she has. She has set me the example to follow, she has raised me to what I hope is a man that makes God and her proud.

To this I say thank You God and thank you Mami. Words will never be enough to describe how grateful I am to have you as my mother and as my best friend. I am a mama's boy and you best believe if you had my mom you would be too. Thank you for always loving me, for looking past my faults and mistakes, for always believing in me, for trusting me, for providing and giving me every opportunity that you never had so one I can be successful, thank you for bringing me into this world (though many times you've threatened to take me out of it lol), thank you for your prayers, tears, and sacrifices, thank you for being an example, thank you for guiding me, thank you for always being honest, thank you for raising me, thank you, thank you, thank you. I love you Mami!

And since today was Mother's day, in honor of Mother's Day, this here goes out to my mamabear.

Proverbs 6:20-23: "My son, observe the commandment of your father and do not forsake the teaching of your mother; bind them continually on your heart; tie them around your neck. When you walk about, they will guide you; when you sleep, they will watch over you; and when you awake, they will talk to you. For the commandment is a lamp and the teaching is light; and reproofs for discipline are the way of life."

PSA

I'll never understand why my God is so good to me. I will continue to declare the glory is in His name! Through pain and trials I have found the joy knowing my God is in control. I can take heart, knowing my God is working in me, for me, and through me. I can see God's prescence among me in the people He has blessed me with in my life. Perfect timing, never failing, meeting each need as promised. I am truly humbled and overwhelmed! I probably have every right to be crushed, to be hurt, to be down; but I can't be any of those things the moment my eyes open and see the beauty of God in my life. So many blessings  have been revealed amidst this storm, that I can't do anything but praise Him. Thank You Father, thank You.

Reflections.

So I've had a few posts on my mind as of late, that due to long reflections I just never posted, but I sit here tonight at a point of reflection. I sit reflecting on one amazing weekend. You see amazing has been a common theme for me as of late, and I truly must say it is because of an AMAZING God! I sit here on the evening after Easter, truly reflecting. As I sit and reflect, I must say I think I'm just awestruck at what God is doing and done in me, around me, through me.

Before I arrive at my reflections, I'm at a point of simultaneous confusion. Let me clarify, I shouldn't be happy in my present situation. I won't go in to much detail, but my personal life/family life is in utter turmoil. In a matter of weeks, my life has become an absolute mess. I d to believe I should have every right to be angry, bitter, withdrawn, crushed, down, cold, and many other negative adjectives. That leads to my point of confusion, for I am none of those things and it makes no sense. In that lack of understand is where I arrive at a point of beauty.

I am at an absolute loss for words for my God. My tears have been shed, though they have been tears of pure joy. I am overwhelmed, I am caught up in the avalanche that is the love of God. I leave this Easter weekend realizing the blessings and current body of work that God has put in motion. Man, I am just grateful, I am so unbelievably blessed. I am going through hell, but the fire is refining me and I praise God for it. I give all the praise for the past month, all to God and God alone. I have seen God shown up in such a big way amidst the storm. What has kept me at peace is remembering scripture and studying scripture. I have been constantly relating to Mark 4:35-41, where Jesus amidst a storm that had the disciples in a state of panic was found in peace. You see while that storm was causing chaos, Jesus was found sound asleep. After the panic, they went and woke Jesus as if Jesus didn't know. He calmly rebuked the storm, displaying His power. When I recall that, I can't seem to relate in a way to the disciples. But this time around I'm not panicking, I have taken refuge in knowing Jesus is on my ship. And with Jesus is on my ship and He says He will get me from point A to point B, it might not be the way I think but I will get there to point B. I have my faith in You!

I refuse to do anything but give glory and praise to God. Over the time of this chaos that has been my life, I have seen answers to many of my prayers. I just want to thank Him! God I love you and thank You for so faithful to an undeserving mess. I have felt such an embrace by others around me, that has purely screamed the name Jesus. I have felt God's embrace through His angels that are my brothers and sisters in Christ. I thank you to my TP family, I thank you for being receptive to God's calling, to showing me and family His love, and for the prayer that has come without ceasing. It has been through you guys that I have been able to hold up strong, of course through the power of Christ. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being the people that God has called you to be.

God, You are so faithful. I thank You for the salvation that has brought me hope, an inexplicable hope. Thank You for filling me with the joy that only You can bring. I have never been more certain in You and Your power. I have seen You reveal and work in me. Praise, Praise, Praise be to You!

I have been seeking Jesus to be the center of my life, I have seen God is able! I have seen in Him there is hope! I have seen peace is His name! I have seen unity is only found in His presence. I have seen God's love in action, I have experienced it. I have seen that God is ready to rock, ready to use me, and I stand here surrendered to do with me what He may. I have come to God out of pure desire and not out of desperation, though I stand in desperate need of renewed mercies upon my life.

I really wanted to rant on Easter, giving some sort of message and maybe I will, but I feel no stronger message than testifying to God's grace in action in my life. I want to encourage you to first come truly surrendered to Him; secondly to surrender everything going on to Him, and thirdly to trust that He is able to overcome! I believe in a mighty big God capable of mighty big things. I stand full of hurt, of pain, of uneasiness. More importantly though I stand forgiven, I stand proudly abounding in His love, but I most importantly humbly kneel, bowing to Him.

Praise be to God, are four words I will not stop proclaiming and I pray they would become an every moment piece of vocabulary for your life. Thank You God.

with love,
- Adam



Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade. This inheritance is kept in heaven for you,  In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls.


- 1 Peter 1:3-9

I'm taking You with me.

^{Phil 4:6-7}

⁶ Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷ And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

I'll admit I got anxious and frustrated. I'll admit in my frustration I began to seek and desire. I want things to be different. I'll admit that I feel I'm going through hell emotionally all over again. But I can also admit that I am blessed beyond belief. I am taking pride in my strength found in God alone. I'll admit that whatever I am going through is for my benefit all according to God's perfect plan and will; I have not doubted God's Sovereignty, I know He is at work. I know I am being refined through fire to become the man He needs and wants me to be. For whatever may come I will NOT be shaken, my eyes will remain upon You. You're the only thing that matters. You're the reason I get up in the morning with a smile despite the storm. You're the purpose I have chosen to live for. Do I have a clue what's going to happen? Now or in the future, no clue! NO WAY! Do I see possibilities of many things? ABSOLUTELY! Am I going to put any of my anxieties anywhere but before the cross? NO THANK YOU! I am surrendered to His Will. Whatever my Dad has for me, the answer is yes. I trust Him so much right now. I know His glory will reign in my life because of it. I don't know, I don't understand, but my hope is in Christ Jesus alone and there isn't another place I'd rather have it. I will be just fine

With love

- Adam