Monday, June 4, 2012
God thank You for opening my eyes. Thank You Jesus for showing me, even you went away in quiet to disconnect from the trials of this world. I refuse to deceive myself anymore, sure I finally cried it out, sure I feel refreshed but mentally I knew where my mind was. Realizing that this just can't be anymore, that for my sanity I need to stop being stubborn. I came before God tonight, saying God take it all and just give me Jesus. I don't need to hold on to my problems or my pain anymore, it isn't my burden to carry! I am meant to come bring it before my Lord and find my rest in Him. That is exactly where I find myself tonight. After gathering my thoughts and through the help of my friend, I realized even Jesus disconnected to spend time with His Father. If Jesus had to disconnect, who the heck am I not to? I find myself humbled, newly strengthened knowing my God has me in His hands. What weighs me, has been removed. I stand realizing all chains have been broken through salvation in Christ. I know my problems aren't going to just go away, but I can rest assured that my resolution won't ever go anywhere. Sure what I bear might not be easy, it might be difficult at times but I will not carry it any further than from before me to before the cross any longer.
God I stand saying take it all, I have trust and I have faith in You. I see that though a storm is amidst me, I stand amidst the center of Your will. Lord, You are sovereign so I need not worry or be anxious. Thank You, I praise You!
I pray that maybe reading this, if there is something holding you down that you would find encouragement from this. Let go and let God. Disconnect from your situations, just give it to God. He wants you to come before Him with whatever you got but make sure to leave it there, before Him, before the cross.
Instead, let the Spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes.Put on your new nature, created to be like God—truly righteous and holy.
Monday, May 14, 2012
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Monday, April 9, 2012
Before I arrive at my reflections, I'm at a point of simultaneous confusion. Let me clarify, I shouldn't be happy in my present situation. I won't go in to much detail, but my personal life/family life is in utter turmoil. In a matter of weeks, my life has become an absolute mess. I d to believe I should have every right to be angry, bitter, withdrawn, crushed, down, cold, and many other negative adjectives. That leads to my point of confusion, for I am none of those things and it makes no sense. In that lack of understand is where I arrive at a point of beauty.
I am at an absolute loss for words for my God. My tears have been shed, though they have been tears of pure joy. I am overwhelmed, I am caught up in the avalanche that is the love of God. I leave this Easter weekend realizing the blessings and current body of work that God has put in motion. Man, I am just grateful, I am so unbelievably blessed. I am going through hell, but the fire is refining me and I praise God for it. I give all the praise for the past month, all to God and God alone. I have seen God shown up in such a big way amidst the storm. What has kept me at peace is remembering scripture and studying scripture. I have been constantly relating to Mark 4:35-41, where Jesus amidst a storm that had the disciples in a state of panic was found in peace. You see while that storm was causing chaos, Jesus was found sound asleep. After the panic, they went and woke Jesus as if Jesus didn't know. He calmly rebuked the storm, displaying His power. When I recall that, I can't seem to relate in a way to the disciples. But this time around I'm not panicking, I have taken refuge in knowing Jesus is on my ship. And with Jesus is on my ship and He says He will get me from point A to point B, it might not be the way I think but I will get there to point B. I have my faith in You!
I refuse to do anything but give glory and praise to God. Over the time of this chaos that has been my life, I have seen answers to many of my prayers. I just want to thank Him! God I love you and thank You for so faithful to an undeserving mess. I have felt such an embrace by others around me, that has purely screamed the name Jesus. I have felt God's embrace through His angels that are my brothers and sisters in Christ. I thank you to my TP family, I thank you for being receptive to God's calling, to showing me and family His love, and for the prayer that has come without ceasing. It has been through you guys that I have been able to hold up strong, of course through the power of Christ. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being the people that God has called you to be.
God, You are so faithful. I thank You for the salvation that has brought me hope, an inexplicable hope. Thank You for filling me with the joy that only You can bring. I have never been more certain in You and Your power. I have seen You reveal and work in me. Praise, Praise, Praise be to You!
I have been seeking Jesus to be the center of my life, I have seen God is able! I have seen in Him there is hope! I have seen peace is His name! I have seen unity is only found in His presence. I have seen God's love in action, I have experienced it. I have seen that God is ready to rock, ready to use me, and I stand here surrendered to do with me what He may. I have come to God out of pure desire and not out of desperation, though I stand in desperate need of renewed mercies upon my life.
I really wanted to rant on Easter, giving some sort of message and maybe I will, but I feel no stronger message than testifying to God's grace in action in my life. I want to encourage you to first come truly surrendered to Him; secondly to surrender everything going on to Him, and thirdly to trust that He is able to overcome! I believe in a mighty big God capable of mighty big things. I stand full of hurt, of pain, of uneasiness. More importantly though I stand forgiven, I stand proudly abounding in His love, but I most importantly humbly kneel, bowing to Him.
Praise be to God, are four words I will not stop proclaiming and I pray they would become an every moment piece of vocabulary for your life. Thank You God.
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade. This inheritance is kept in heaven for you, In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls.
- 1 Peter 1:3-9
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Things are a wreck but I see no wreckage.
I am in that moment where you have no control of anything and just surrender.
Things in my life have hit the fan after months of flirtation, but I stand strong in Him.
Saturday, March 10, 2012
I should feel discouraged, but I am not. I should be upset, but I am not. I should be making excuses to revert my ways, but I won't! Man it doesn't matter what you're going through, God is still God. He is with you, step by step. He is the calm and comfort amidst the storm. He is the soft whisper of encouragement that is telling you, it will be alright. I think many of us have a reason to want to stop, but if you were stop to take a moment, you'd realize God is with you. I stand firm this morning, Lord refine me through the flame. The devil can continue attacking, attack my family, attack my schooling, attack my job; he can keep scheming. I stand boldly before Your throne claiming victory already. I am a conqueror in Christ, the devil can attack all those aspects of my life but there is one thing he can't do and that is stop me.
And he said, "O man greatly beloved, fear not! Peace be to you; be strong, yes, be strong!" So when he spoke to me I was strengthened, and said, "Let my lord speak, for you have strengthened me."
In the multitude of my anxieties within me,Your comforts delight my soul.
These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world."
PRAISE GOD AMEN!
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Romans 12:2a NKJV
"And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind... "
I find myself smack dab in the middle of what has been one of the most eye opening, perspective placing, heart breaking, and life changing experiences in my life. That experience has been known to be called the One Conference 2012. I will later on tonight be wrapping up the third and final day of the conference, and I must say I can't begin to start to put in words everything that's being instilled in my heart right now but that verse above is the overall description of what's going on right now. I find myself in a place of perspective, renewing my mind through His Spirit; realizing I find myself in a place where I have been convinced by the lies of this world. I have conformed to the ways of this world's water downed form of Christianity, rather than following the natural passion He boils in my heart. So I stand here today, renewing my mind, refusing to conform to the world, and allowing the word of God to transform my heart. Things I want to be, I will start believing I am. Not that I want to, or will be, but that I AM. I am a man of God, I have the word of God hidden in my heart, I am a spiritual warrior, I am a fervent prayer, I am a spiritual leader, I am the spiritual guide and leader that my wife and family will one day depend on, I am a man of honor, respect and loyalty. I am those things. I am and they will come to fruition as I listen to God, whom is telling me and showing me in Him and.only in.Him, I am exactly that. Man, do I believe in Him. I trust You God.
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Friday, January 20, 2012
Some of the lyrics:
"I want to get back to where it all began, When I would long for only You. Like a child I'll take You at Your Word, as these mountains of doubt, they fade away. I'm longing to trust and love You more, so for me this is beautiful. A brand new thought, and a brand new world, can I stay here forever with You? I've lost sight of what first drew me to the love that pursued me" - "Can I Stay Here Forever" - Starfield
"So, I want to let go. I want to let You know all that I have to give is Yours" - "All For You" - Starfield
"For what do I have, if I don't have You, Jesus" - "Cry in My Heart" - Starfield
Christ, You have been faithful to me always. I see throughout since day 1, when I pulled over that night broken and meek, just crying, screaming for You in sweet surrender. You have held up to be everything You said You are. You have changed me and everything around me. You have loved me, embraced me, led me, comforted me, built me up, given me a firm rock to stand upon. You have been everything You said You are and more, yet I find myself today having forgotten all that. Yeah sure, I've been praying and serving, occasionally reading and doing the things I should. Yeah sure I haven't become some heathen or terrible example of a Christian, but somewhere along the way I lost myself in myself. I have forgotten who You are and what You've done for me. I forgot who I am in You. I've allowed disappointments to lead me from loving and trusting You, not realizing that Your sovereignty has been there all along, showing everything has been for my good. So God, I come to a place of seeking grace again. I ask You to engulf me in Your mercy again. I ask that I lose myself in You. I want to be for You, about You again. I give You back all my trust, You deserve it. Even if I had nothing, I have You and that is enough!