Getting Into You

Lord, I am getting into You more and more, day by day, and I couldn't be happier about it. Yesterday was 2 months exact since I made the best decision of my life, to give myself up, accept You in, and follow You. The transformation that has been brought to my attention by others along with my own realization of where I am, leaves me in awe. It so jaw dropping for me, because I know who I was (as does He). I know how dark I truly was, I know how far I truly was, and to see how close I am now is simply mind-blowing for me.

I admitted to a friend yesterday, the fear is what had always kept me from making the decision to accept Him. Going to a Christian school from 6th grade through 12th grade, I got to experience and see the affects of those who truly cherish and seek Him. And that scared me. I admitted yesterday the fear of God's plan for my life kept me away. I was scared because I knew by observation Christianity is serious business. God doesn't play around, when He has a plan He calls us to it. And I, this childish immature young man had always been scared of that plan. What if I got called to do something I didn't want to do, I'd have to go do it, I mean it'd be His plan. So I always chose not to even get to that point and just stay content in the life I was living. I was happy living my life. The constant flow of sinful nature and constant giving in was just sooo pleasing. For 22 years, and almost 27 complete days I chose to not choose and by doing so I chose. Then that night September 14th, I chose. I chose to accept Him and follow Him. I prayed hard after accepting Him into my life, that'd He'd humble me and destroy every wall that I hold up that He can make every aspect of my life for Him. I was choosing and praying intensely to get into Him. 

I'm still praying that prayer, I know I still have things that I'm letting go of day by day, and as those days go by I grow closer and closer to Him, and there is no greater joy. I no longer have that fear of His plans (Jer.29:11). I couldn't care less about His plans, in the sense I don't mind whatever the plans are, I just want to follow His plans. I've said to a few people lately I would be happy as a homeless man, or gladly live on a mountain in a tent because I know that'd be where God is going to putting me and where He would want me. In other words, I don't care; I don't have that fear anymore of what God has planned for my life, I'm going to embrace it. It might not be something easy or something I truly want to do, but that isn't what is going to matter. What matters is His will and plan for my life, and that fact that I just want to follow it, no matter what it may be or where it might take me. He is the only thing that matters to me anymore. If my life isn't glorifying Him, what purpose do I have. So I'm making it a point now. My priorities have been sorted out, and He stands alone on top. I really have noticed a difference in myself. I find myself doing things, I would've never imagined myself ever doing ever. Praising God with all my heart with no regards, doing whatEVER it is He puts on my heart to do. I really feel that I am on His path right now. Things in my life seem to be getting more and more hectic but yet things seem so much clearer than they have ever in my life. This is all cause I chose and currently am getting into You.

I truly feel this is where I'm at right now. So for now I bid thee farewell with love,

-adam

"Getting Into You"

When I made up my mind
And my heart along with that
To live not for myself
But yet for God, somebody said
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

When I finally ironed out
All of my priorities
And asked God to remove the doubt
That makes me so unsure of these
Things I ask myself, I ask myself
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

[Chorus]
I'm getting into You
Because you got to me, in a way words can't describe
I'm getting into You
Because I've got to be
You're essential to survive
I'm going to love You with my life

When he looked at me and said
I kind of view you as a son
And for a second our eyes met
And I met that with a question
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

[Chorus]

I'm getting into You
Because You got to me, in a way words can't describe
I'm getting into You
Because I've got to be
You're essential to survive
I'm going to love You with my life
I've been a liar and I'll never amount to
The kind of person You deserve to worship You
You say You will not dwell on what I did but rather what I do You say
I love you and that's what you are getting yourself into

[Chorus]

I'm getting into You
Because you got to me, in a way words can't describe
I'm getting into You
Because I've got to be
You're essential to survive
I'm going to love You with my life
He said, I love you and that's what you are getting yourself into