Ok so reading my friend's blog I came across something they wrote.
"What I have learned is that we only have one shot. Only one life to live. What matters most are the people we have surrounding us at that time. Supporting and encouraging. Pursuing our passion, cause you know what, so what if we try something and then suck at it?! At least we tried!! I haven't been living so afraid of everything. Afraid of failing that I've failed at life, but there aren't many second chances at this thing.
So go after what you want to do. And remember that your family is there for you no matter what."
This excerpt really spoke to me in two ways.
First simply because it is so encouraging and true. Those first two sentences alone, say it all. We only have one life. So why be scared? why hold back? Not saying be reckless, but we can't be afraid. "The Lord is my light and my salvation, whom shall i fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life, of whom shall i be afraid?" - Psalm 27:1. Seriously what more motivation do I need. I have only one life to live AND I have the Lord with me. So why hold back? Why be ashamed? Why not share? Unfortunately this is something I am struggling with, and not just in my spiritual life. Just life in general, I tend to be self-conscious about things I do and say to a fault. I'm working on it though. I'm truly striving to make my life something that is of worth to Him. With everything I do, through every person I come in contact with. I just want people to see I am different, and that He is the difference.
We also cant be afraid to pursue our passion. I am a victim of this. I enjoy writing and expressing myself. And I've always been scared to because I feel I am not very good at it. But I need to start practicing what I preach. Failure is just an opportunity to grow and get back up and go at it again. Lately, I've been told I have talents that I should explore, if not for anything other than why not. Who cares? At least I tried, right? This is a new perspective I am gaining a grasp of and applying to my life. What do I have to lose? "Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ" - Galatians 1:10. I'm always scared to open myself up. I've always been judged but you know what? Again, Who cares? The only one that matters is the only Judge, and that's my Father. As long as it pleases Him, I should do it. And I encourage you to do so too.
Which leads me to the second thing that spoke to me,which was the rest of it about the people we have around us, supporting and encouraging us. If it weren't for the people I had around me that were listening, encouraging, helping, sharing, talking, caring, and loving, I would have never made the decision for Christ when I did. It was months upon months upon months of support and encouragement from my peers that made me realize I wasn't right inside. As odd as that sounds. Something about them and how they could be so supportive and encouraging made me take a look at my life. And that look made me realize I didn't really have Him and I needed Him. You see support and encouragement can go so far. It can do and lead to things that we had no idea were possible. I can tell you for a fact, they didn't do it because they thought I was lost. They thought I had him, I thought I had Him. But through their actions I realized I was lacking something and needed Him. For that my friends, all of you, I am forever grateful.
And a special thanks to my friend for the quote though they knew not of my "borrowing" lol